Monday, April 18, 2016

baby two, month nine

hello there, me here.  me and my nine month bump.  its really more than a bump though at this point, its like a giant entity all its own.  my due date is just over a week out, so im more than ready to get my game on.  i was a few days early with eden and i am hoping for more of the same with this little lady. 
i find myself trying to remember what early labor felt like last time and i just can't.  i had about 5 hours of non-active labor last time around, where i just drank wine, watched movies, and hung out with robert.  it did not get real until about hour 6, when i had to focus and could not talk through contractions.  will i have that much time this go around?  and honestly i cant remember what the contractions felt like.  i have had several rounds of pre-labor contractions this time but they feel more intense than i remember early labor feeling last time.  i guess i am just anticipating this new birth story, i want to know it.  i want to know her story now. 
eden is very very aware of her little sister's exisence.  over the weekend we were watching mary poppins and eden looked at me so sincerely and said 'i wish baby ____ could come out and watch this great movie too'.  it just melted me that she looked around and thought that the moment would be better if sister were there.  and this morning she put her head on my belly and said 'mommy ima take so so care of my sister'.  
things im most looking forward to about my own body: 
~being able to get up without help, which i literally cannot do at this point.  
~being able to put my pants on without having to sit down.
~being able to put shoes on without tricking eden into thinking that its a fun game to help mama put them on
~anticipating food, eating it, and then NOT throwing part of it up.

things im most looking forward to about HER:
~seeing her face for the first time.  i just have no idea how she will look.
~the smell, that baby smell, that makes the whole world stop.  uggg i want it
~snuggles, breastfeeding, and learning who in the world my dear daughter is.  

get on out here duck! 

Wednesday, April 6, 2016

let's do this

im full term now which feels like a big accomplishment after how sick i have been.  i am still sick by the way, and have not kept dinner down in 5 or 6 nights.  little lady is 'locked and loaded' with her head down and is sitting very very low, which is why i cant lift my legs.  the pressure.  i can't even. 
people keep asking how i am and i think the honest answer is ready.  there is some anxiety surrounding what the transition to a mom of 'kids' will be like, but mostly i am just really ready to start figuring it out.  i have been wondering what it will be like, wondering how eden will do, wondering about all of it.  and now i just want to get to it and start figuring it out. i think its going to be great (and crazy and really hard)  but i am honestly really excited.  and im even starting to anticipate L & D, even though its also really intimidating to me.  

my sister had her little boy, clive, last week, so now it officially feels like my turn.  this is from our last few days with both babes still in the bumps
and here is the little man himself
here go the last few weeks!

Wednesday, March 23, 2016

the need to nest

so i have been feeling antsy lately.  im sure there are lots of reasons for this. the RLS is a big one since it actually makes me feel like i have ants crawling up and down my limbs.  but i think another contributing factor has been that i dont have a room for little girl.  she will share with eden eventually, but not while we are still in our current house.  so for the first three months of her life she will be in our room, and there is no where for me to set up a crib and prepare for her.  and i think its been making me uneasy not to have anything set up for her, or ready.  a place that is only for her.

so, this past weekend i decided that she would have a nook in our room, decorated and ready for her.  not just a bassinet, but a little place that is only for her.  let me tell you, it did my mind a world of good to prepare and fuss over a little corner of the world reserved for this little girl.  simple, but perfect for us.  made personal with a lovely print on the wall by my dearest greta and a handmade blanket in the bassinet by the lovely marla.  


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