hi all. i know i always post on thursdays but this week was a little crazy with traveling from WA and getting stuck in Detroit overnight...
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baby girl is now 35 weeks, as long as a stalk of chard. she is due exactly one month from tomorrow, the 13th, which is just really hitting me. there is nothing i can do to stop it, she has to come out, and its not that far away. my family and i keep debating about if she will come early or be late. she moves so so so much, i can't imagine that she is going to wait patiently until the 13th of August. sometimes i think she is just going to burst through my belly right here and now. but then she is also my daughter...and robert's daughter...which means she is stubborn and must have things her own way so i can see her staying in there for a long time. its amazing that she could come any time now, or not for another 6 weeks...
i go back and forth between feeling really confident and ready, and feeling petrified and like i want to hide under something (as if i could hide anywhere right now with my belly). after an incredibly generous shower, (which i will be posting about later) thrown by the incredible ladies at my WA church, i have almost everything i physically NEED to get through the first few months. but do i have everything i emotionally need? spiritually need? these are the questions that are on repeat in my mind.
and robert and i keep having all these realizations that we are doing things for the 'last time'. like we only have maybe 4 or 5 more sundays of going to church without having a baby with us. or we only have a few more weeks to go on spontaneous dates where we don't have to plan child care. or, especially these days when im so tired, we realize we only have a certain number of days to truly sleep in until we feel like waking up...its not a bad thing, like we feel our fun or freedom is ending, but just more that we are very aware of how much our lives will change.
my belly is really feeling huge to me these days, i can't believe how much there is to look at when i look down. this must be coming to a close here pretty soon...
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baby girl is now 35 weeks, as long as a stalk of chard. she is due exactly one month from tomorrow, the 13th, which is just really hitting me. there is nothing i can do to stop it, she has to come out, and its not that far away. my family and i keep debating about if she will come early or be late. she moves so so so much, i can't imagine that she is going to wait patiently until the 13th of August. sometimes i think she is just going to burst through my belly right here and now. but then she is also my daughter...and robert's daughter...which means she is stubborn and must have things her own way so i can see her staying in there for a long time. its amazing that she could come any time now, or not for another 6 weeks...
i go back and forth between feeling really confident and ready, and feeling petrified and like i want to hide under something (as if i could hide anywhere right now with my belly). after an incredibly generous shower, (which i will be posting about later) thrown by the incredible ladies at my WA church, i have almost everything i physically NEED to get through the first few months. but do i have everything i emotionally need? spiritually need? these are the questions that are on repeat in my mind.
and robert and i keep having all these realizations that we are doing things for the 'last time'. like we only have maybe 4 or 5 more sundays of going to church without having a baby with us. or we only have a few more weeks to go on spontaneous dates where we don't have to plan child care. or, especially these days when im so tired, we realize we only have a certain number of days to truly sleep in until we feel like waking up...its not a bad thing, like we feel our fun or freedom is ending, but just more that we are very aware of how much our lives will change.
my belly is really feeling huge to me these days, i can't believe how much there is to look at when i look down. this must be coming to a close here pretty soon...
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